The fear, that is, of changing your whole life and everything you know.

I said before that I was going to start taking classes at a local boxing gym, to get in shape and maybe to learn Mixed Martial Arts or Brazillian Jiu Jitsu. I was supposed to start this last Monday, but every day during last week I made excuse after excuse ("7:00am is too early... It's a lot of money... What if I don't like the gym...") and I haven't gone.

Not only have I not gone, but I've seem to have made it my mission this week to both consume every treat I could get my paws on (Sees at work, eggnog at home, etc and so on) as well as completely ignore the gym the last week (mainly because I was on my last week at work and kept telling myself I had to get my hours this week).

So I could attribute these follies to just being distracted, but the root of the cause is really about fear; that I keep telling myself that soon I will be changing my life, it's not now. And I'm worried that I will always put off the "now" 'til "later". So just like this new gym membership, I'll keep telling myself I could do it later.

I have (real) excuses now... I'm leaving for San Diego on Monday to spend Christmas with my sister. But when I get back, I have to go, for the sake of my health and my future that could be put on hold as well.