Still dreaming

Yes, haven't posted in awhile. A lot of things have happened to me in the last few months; a lot of life changes and realignment.

Happiness

My life has essentially turned upside down the last few weeks. This was caused in part by this blog; the ideas that I've started in my head of where I want my life to go and what kind of life I want to lead. I took a leap away from the last few years of my life, which is extremely difficult for me.

This blog and this recent life change were both prompted by the subject of happiness -- what happiness is, what would bring me happiness, and how I can position myself to be happier.

Added #55: Learn how to shoot a gun

I added a new goal today: I want to know how to shoot a gun (at least semi-proficiently).

#1: Climb a mountain

It's only mid-January of 2009, and I have another goal that is in progress!

A friend of mine is organizing a backpacking trip to Mt. Shasta, which happens to be 14,179 feet (thus completing my requirement of 14,000+ feet). And man, it's going to be grueling: according to my friend's post on the subject:

#12: Sell a Piece of Art

First step to selling a piece of art is producing art, right?

A bit harder than it sounds; I haven't drawn, seriously, since second year of college, quite a few years ago. While I studied Art and Design, I took the specific concentration of Graphic Design and as soon as the typography classes rolled in, art for arts sake took a backseat (and relegated only to doodles).

2009 Resolutions

2008 was an uneventful year (as years go). I only realized my drive to finish some of the goals of my life late in the year, so the rest of the year before that I didn't do much. I sat around. I played video games. I was content, but not happy.

Next year will be different.

The Fear

The fear, that is, of changing your whole life and everything you know.

I said before that I was going to start taking classes at a local boxing gym, to get in shape and maybe to learn Mixed Martial Arts or Brazillian Jiu Jitsu. I was supposed to start this last Monday, but every day during last week I made excuse after excuse ("7:00am is too early... It's a lot of money... What if I don't like the gym...") and I haven't gone.

Re-inspiring Myself

I got another thrill of excitement today when I started looking up information on Burning Man* -- the feeling that I could do something potentially exciting and life-changing and it could happen soon. It's the same feeling I had, all those years ago, when I wrote this. 

Update: Flail!

Okay, rather silly of me to assume that being awesome could happen overnight. On one hand, I've been thinking about my life goals a lot (I know! Big step woo!) but really, it's hard to work on climbing a mountain when I'm still broke and still trying to figure out my life.

I've done miniscule progress to all my goals in the last few days, at least:

Beginning: Achieve a healthy BMI (#41)

Ugh, ugh, ugh -- I HATE diets. I even hate the fact I added this dream to this blog; I don't particularly want to admit that I am obese (ugh ugh ugh again!) I love food, I love to cook, and I've never been a skinny girl.